November 13th, 2007
An Insomniac’s Conversation with Herself
Being an insomniac is so not funny anymore and I’m putting all the blame solely on my roommate. 1. cause I really think it is really her fault and 2. she doesn’t read my blog so putting the blame on her rather than myself makes things easier.
1. I never ever had problems falling asleep before till I got here. Before this, I can fall asleep almost whenever I want and I gracefully accept that as god’s gift to me wtf. BUT here, my roommate has some dunno what A.D.D and she takes some dunno what pill and does NOT sleep at all. One will think that she takes the pill to help her concentrate in doing her schoolwork but no! She takes it so she can play WARCRAFT the whole night. *faints
Therefore conclusion is, it disrupts my sleep greatly because I can hear her typing to her warcraft mates asking for sword or army wtf. So nevermind, I resort to asking Angie to donate her earplugs to me. Sleep came by easily for the next week or so until one day when I woke up and realized that they’re missing T____T
As you can see, I’m damn free wtf.
Sigh so nowadays I usually take an hour or more to fall asleep even when I’m really tired and sleepy and even when said culprit is not even playing warcraft. It’s like I’m already used to not being able to fall asleep. Long ago when I could fall asleep anytime, I just had to start talking to myself (not aloud la) and the moment when my thoughts became incoherent, that was when sleep would engulf me completely. I would then not fight its possession over me and let myself be consumed totally by it. It was bliss.
But that was long long time ago. Now I can talk to myself forever and without knowing it, the sun will be up and I’ll still be talking to myself.
Example of conversation with myself:
Ok time to sleep! I’m soooo tired yawn.
*blinks 35 times and pretends to yawn again
I’m really tired! and sleepy! I can sleep anytime soon! YAWNNN
Oh I didn’t crack my waist, no wonder I can’t fall asleep! I must crack my waist before I sleep everynight!
*twists body in awkward angle to left, and to right.
*still wide awake
OHHH I forgot to crack my knuckles (fingers and toes)! Silly me!
*cracks every single crack-able part of my body
Hmm what shall I eat tomorrow..Shit did I finish my homework?!?!!$@ Oh I did fuh.
*40 minutes later
OHH I forgot to meditate that’s why can’t fall asleep! Ohm…ohm.. namo tassa bhagavato arahato sammasambudhasa ohm..(WTF why i still remember this)
*60 minutes later
T____________T Why am I still awake I hate myself got class at 8am tomorrow lahhh T__T looks like I have no choice but to skip my morning class. Case resolved.
*falls asleep peacefully
Sigh that’s basically how it is for me EVERY single night. But of course the conversation goes on longer than that. I’ll think of everything think-able like what to blog, what to wear tomorrow, if I should go mall or not, how many days I haven’t shat already, why didn’t I eat vege, why is the sky blue, why did the chicken really cross the road, seriously lah everything imaginable. It’s a wonder why I never ran out of things to think about one lor when it comes to this.
Really really suffering man. Somemore I’m running out of things to ohm with when I meditate. *reminds self to google Buddhist Chants wtf. Last time when I went Buddhist school wtf I damn pro at the whole bhagavato thing one.
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you’ll get used to it. i remember my first year in uni, really hard to fall asleep at night and would usually end up being a panda in the morning classes. i miss it.
one question yea…
if earplugs block out the noise, how d’you get up in the morning? can hear alarm ah?
coz i myself is pig. no earplugs also sometimes can’t hear alarm - how to wake up? *hehe*
u have my email there… i can send u some nice buddhist chants which are really relaxing… jus add me then
haha..I am doing the exact thing like what you are doing..crack the waist..knuckles…talking to myself..keep telling myself..i am fccking tired..bla bla bla..and even imagine myself in a very dark dark room…i can touch nothing but to close my eyes n sleep..but still..really hard to fall asleep..i think is mainly due to stress..so i will end up leaving my bed,sit in front my lappie and play fifa till i am really dead tired..then only i go to bed again…
ahaha I’m like you too, never ran out of things to think about. Just now I was thinking about why you’re distracted by warcraft gamers wakakak (ignore me -_-)
ps: of all the many things I’ve tried, still horlicks and counting sheeps work best.
Ehhh I went to Buddhist school also!!!
Sadhu sadhu sadhu
girlm you need some sleep. try counting sheeps or lie in front of the comp and fall asleep. it works at times
when i recite buddhists chants, sure will fall asleep wan
eh the convo you wrote is like the whole purpose is to reach the inevitable conclusion of skipping your morning class, then only you can fall asleep.
and go buy new earplugs! very cheap only mah!
i pride myself as the King of Sleep. though i do have a few insomniac moments but very rarely.. kesian lu.
mcb why the image thing don’t work wan. haih nvm.
hey suet.why la cannot tidur?
bet missing home is tough what more insomniac moments of tht sort..
don’t so stingy la,get it when its worth it! =)
lovesss.
the best ever solution: open up your textbook and start reading chapters to chapters. i’m pretty sure u’ll fall asleep pretty quick and also get to read up on some of the stuffs on the text. i tried and it worked
ask those “concentration” pills from your room mate and concentrate on sleeping can ah?
hahahahah ur post damn stupid. but today in the library you fell asleep so fast on the sofa ! does that mean you feel so comfortable with me /boo
A girl that plays computer games! now thats hot.
eff, u miss it?! =.=
fer, haha dunno how i can wake up also! seriously sometimes the first ring also i wake up edi maybe my hearing is damn good wtf
jin, did you just send that to me? haha i was listening to it then tried to sleep but then got hungry and went for dinner instead. that was when i wnana nap la wtf
kimfei, how can!! i can’t waste my time playing comp game when i have class in the morning tmrw!
iwan, dun have horlicks here god i miss horlicks too =(((( i count sheep in french before wtf but didn’t work cause i lost track then started thinking again wtf
jam, haha which one! mine is sjba wtf subang jaya one.
jillian, hahhaa how can fall asleep on my desk ah! wake up with sores all over my body wtf. ya i count sheep in french before but didn’t work wtf
foongjin, yala duno why i always forget to buy earplugs. maybe cause the only time i go to the mall is once in few weeks and i usually spend all tht time wisely shopping for clothes instead =.=
clem, what image is that! nothing one are u trying to spread virus in my blog wtf
missycheerio, yala i damn determined to get it tmrw when i go mall edi but i’m quite sure it’s gone already =((((((((((
annon, i always think of that idea but too lazy to go get my book and read wtf. sometimes i try and when i close the book then immediately feel not sleepy edi wtf
jess, i wish =.= it’s like caffeine one i think can’t sleep for hours after taking it.
angie, haha i think i am /boo or maybe cause i dman damn sleepy edi wtf
eugene, for nights without sleeping at all, now that’s not.
gawd girl i know what you mean. french! not bad. your taking up french?
yeap! but damn hard la seriously sigh
very interesting.
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