February 18th, 2008
Happy/sad?
Today I achieved Nirvana.
After printing all my readings and after reading 2 chapters of 90 pages of the smallest print you’d have ever seen, I finally came to an important realization. I was so close to dropping the class and call it quits but that got me thinking. I really really like this class, Rise of China, which is about issues China is facing now. The lectures are interesting but the readings are pretty tough. We have to write a paper each week (albeit only 1 page) and a final paper later.
With my current very very heavy workload, it’s impossible to read everything and write a good paper every week. And that was when I achieved the state of absolute harmony, stability and joy. ohm. All these years, through primary school, through high school, through a level, all I ever cared about was getting good grades. I must always get at least 7 out of 10 As in each exam, always get top 3, always do this that but I totally missed out what’s so utterly important here. I always want/need/must get good grades but are grades really that important? (wah damn serious wtf like essay for English SPM on “do grades matter?”)
No they don’t. What I said in my 5 page essay in high school weren’t what I really meant cause I was still as kiasu as always even after writing that essay. But now, I can firmly tell you that I finally understand the meaning of learning. People here don’t care about grades at all. The only people who will ask you what your GPA is are the Chinese seriously. They are the only thick-faced hooligans going around campus demanding to know everyone’s gpa and at the same time, boast about their 4.0.
But I shall not be one of them anymore because I have achieved Nirvana wtf. I shall now take classes not cause I must get an A but cause I’m here to learn. ohm… I will try my best but if I don’t get great results, then who cares? right right?? sigh make me happy lah everyone wtf.
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I’m sad cause I have no money left T_________T After leaving aside some money to buy my flight home, some money to buy stuff for my family and close friends (everyone please don’t expect me to buy stuff back you think I’m on holiday is it must buy souvenirs wtf), some money to last me for the whole of next semester (cause I don’t wanna ask more money from my parents T_T), I officially have -$100 in my bank.
Some more I’m so stupid dunno why was I so kind the other day cause I told my mom to give all my angpow money to my siblings T____T RM270 gone T__T She asked me three times if I was sure cause she knows how important money is to me wtf but I said “of course I’m sure, give them lah since I love them so much” what got into me! Suddenly became such a good sister wtf
I also got fined by the stupid bank cause I used more than what I had in my account T___T fined $40 ok can buy 4 dresses omg I’m so sad. I wanted to sue them saying how can they allow me to use more in the first place when it was a debit card, not credit, but suing takes a lot of money so I gave up..
The only way to get more money is by working harder in the kitchen wtf but I don’t have time to work T____T I have at least 100 pages to read every week, 2 hours of french work everyday, french quizzes twice a week, a paper to write every week, one confucius book to read and a paper, and THREE freaking midterms coming up. I’m dead meat.
Listing these down makes me feel more nervous omg I have two papers due next 3 weeks and they both require so much research beforehand omg is this how college life is like omg i’m panicking like crazy i’ll go sleep now to calm down!!!!!!@$!%$!%!
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Seriously if there is one person who is more aunty than me it’s Shanshan wtf. She will ask me to sleep every night and will nag and nag until I really give up on life and go sleep wtf.
If I complain that I have a lot of work (which I will never do again), she sits there and makes sure I do all my work. If I start chatting or reading blogs, she’ll clear her throat loudly and ask me to do work. Is this a healthy relationship? I’m starting to have doubts wtf.
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haha, suet
this is my very first time to drop comment on ur blog! bcoz was suprising to ur DAI FONG lar! all this while ur stingy suet, now become “DAI FONG SUET”! Weldone! keep it up! =P
omg wat are u talking about of course it’s a healthy relationship la. i also want a friend like that if i have her as my room mate i won be commenting here wtf i’ll be practising now. you get what i mean?
hahahaha damn cute ok shanshan! angela just ignores me all the time *emoes wtf
whoa suet, i feel your pain when the bank fined you. i also kena before, damn suey la, they allowed the transaction to go thru and then they mailed me a letter saying: “since you have been a loyal customer and have had no previous problems with your credit, we have allowed you to withdraw the money but we have to charge $35 in fees…bla bla bla” damn sakit hati man!
OMG, so scary. It’s like one of those JPA kids whose parents wrote to the papers saying how her kid doesn’t have enough money. JPA supposedly gave more money but then her kid got less.
About the room mate, mine was worse. She used to nag me everyday asking me what I was going to do that day, whether I had lunch/ dinner, if I’m going out, if I’m going back home, etc. Worse than my mother.
gosh babe your workload sounds crazy O.o i never had that much of work in my college and uni life. god bless you wtf.
anyways your roomie’s dam pretty! and wah dam good la at least she helps you keep track of your work.
You’ve finally seen the way Suet…
Open your mind…
Hahahahahahaha…
But to have the urge to get good grades is something like a built in software for the Chinese…
Hahahahahaha…
So it would be rather hard to “uninstall” this software that has been planted since young…
Having a roommate like Shanshan may be quite helpful…
But too much of it may be annoying…
Hahahahahaha…
hey twins!!!
hahahahah,…..can’t believe the 1st thng i hear went i got thru is – OMG u look like her…
me : her who??
them : Suet Li
me : Suet li who?!! ( gettin very puzzled)
them : d blogger…
me : ohhhhhhhhhh….(still dunno who iszit actually)
BTW, i’m yvonne, not ee-von..
*pinkpau wrote my name wrongly*
ok la….at certain angle we look alike…. ;p
oh well….wish ur twins good luck!!!
haha, true la. if get A good la, dont have means dont have la, stress also no use the A wont come what wtf. i lived up to this ‘principle’, and of cos it became an excuse for me to slack hahahaha.
actually good la, it goes to show that she cares for you. i think most of my friends wont even care becos they gave up already. T______T
hey don’t be sad, my friends and i think you should join the malaysian dreamgirl thing!!! sadly, you’re not in malaysia anymore right?
give up on life and sleep lol you crack us up!!! lol
Wahh you’ve truly understood the meaning of education. I haven’t yet. Malaysia is not letting me. Sad.
Good luck on your workload dear.
wah if my roommate as annoying as shan shan i’ll be so angry wtf. i’ll say fuck off and let me copy your work wtf.
Ohmmm all the best ohmmmm
Tat’s like that sometimes I just tune him out… or punch him out
wa totally true lor. FUCK GRADES. i oso wanna achieve nirvana but JPA dun let me T______________T.
seriously ur workload is like scaryyy. i feel better now altho i hav tests, n tests coming up wtf.
hahahahahaha Shanshan so hot yet so auntie. I guess God is fair wtf.
Let me get this straight… They charged you for using your own money? Wtflyingf?
joe: no lah, they charge you for using money you don’t have in your account, which should be impossible, because it’s not a credit card
lmy, hahaha nola i’m not daifong! just to my family members la i guess.
eevon, hahahh ya i get it! hahah nola she’s not thattt strict la!
aud, hahhaha ok i’ll ask angie to monitor u now wtf
kris, ya seriously how can right!! i rather they reject my transaction and malukan me in front of the cashier person lor!! sakit hati sial
arshana, i don’t understand about the jpa issue leh? hahahah that one damn bad ok!
cass, i know it is crazy wei im dying T_T summore just started only this semester. haha ya she’s really pretty =)
porcupine, im gonna try to uninstall it! but it might not work la sigh see how. haha ya it is helpful sometimes!
yvonne, heyyy my twin! hahah why they call me the blogger like damn sad label wtf. hahah how did you find my blog anyway?? and let’s add each other on msn and compare pictures wtf i still don’t think we look alike! good luck! win for me wtf
ron, haha ya it’s a good principle la im gonna try that now. hahah ya she cares about me im happy too!
jean, nola if im there also i wont join im damn short and fat ok T_T not damn la but compared to the other tall and slim girls.
jloi, ya sigh nvmla u will soon reach nirvana too, my disciple wtf
tze, hahahah wtf nola she’s not annoying! just cute and funny wtf
jam, hahaha should i punch her too wtf
bs, fuck jpa la wtf didnt give me scholarship at all T_T ya workload is crazy here seriously but i shall persevere wtf. hahhahah ya god is fair cause he gave me small boobs and inability to sing or dance T_T
fuzzy, ok see barry’s ans wtf
baz, love u
I don’t care abt Aud cuz I’m procrastinating as well ok. U think why I get my title as The Zuma Queen wtf.
yea, sometimes they reject the card but i think if u put things on direct debit which involves them debiting automatically each month or smth, they allow damn suey man. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr……………..money making banks
u got friendster??
add me then……i hav my msn add there!!!
oh yah…
i got 2 ur blog thru shaolin tiger’s blog…..
hehehhehehe……….
;p
ShanShan rocks!!!!
O_O
study+learn for knowledge, NOT for grades. i’m standing by this, firmly. That’s what I believe.
I never get good grades ‘cuz my answers will always out of point, i.e.not the ones the lecturers wanted.
WTF.
anyway, i just watched ‘Jumper’. love it.
yoo take care babe. xoxo
why shanshan so cute wan lol, in an auntie way.. at least now you have um someone to mother you wtf.
your post makes me wonder too for the billionth time why the hell am i studying what im studying in college T__T marketing principles ya allah boring like shit..somehow your subjects sound much more interesting than mine, workload aside.
Eh i was about to mencapai nirvana wtf cause I had too much Nirvana Nasi banana leaf wtf sorry this is not related at all… But err good luck with ur work…
angie, hahahha yala faster go teach 33 how to play zuma also la wtf
kris, yala damn sneaky la they all! ish at least now i know la sigh
yvonne, added =)
kaze, ya i heard jumper is nice. sigh i come back only buy pirated dvd and watch la wtf.
clem, u all go tubuhkan shanshan fan club la wtf. ya my classes are all very nice thats why worth learning! marketing principles haha as if u’ll use that when u work!
huiting, …………damn wtf laaa! i want banana leaf also T_T
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