January 4th, 2009
On the first day of new year
It was a game of Boggle that made up my resolution this year. Truth is, I was never really someone who makes resolutions and keeps them but I am certain that this year will be different. For the past god knows how many years, my resolutions have been always the same ol’ same ol’.
Lose weight, preferably until I weigh a mere 42 kg.
Grow some more boobs, B cup is all I’m asking for.
Those have always been my only two resolutions, and yet I couldn’t even keep them. But that has never really bothered me. Who cares about weight these days anyway? And boobs won’t grow anymore when I’m already this old so why bother.
But this year, it will be different. I’m sure it will.
Boggle is an interesting game. At first glance, I could only make up at most 5 words but if I push myself a little, strain my eyes a tiny bit more, turn my head a certain angle, I could make up at least 15 more words. Expand my mind, stretch my vocab, another 5 more words. Before I know it, I’m scribbling another extra 10 words.
A relationship is like a game of boggle. Once you think you’ve reached a dead end, all you need is to push yourself a little bit more and look at things from a different perspective. There are always new words waiting to be discovered, more points to be earned.
So as I sat there thinking of all the words I can think of with those 16 letters, I thought of my resolution this year.
My resolution this year is to try harder to keep this relationship alive.
It has never really been much of a struggle anyway, except when distance piles its weight onto us. This year will be different though since we are going to be in different time zones the entire year cause we’ll each be studying abroad. I’m dead scared of what the future holds for us but I’m pretty certain this resolution is the only one I can and will keep, after so long for being guilty as charged for not keeping any of my resolutions.
On new year’s day, we finally wore some guts on our sleeves and ventured out into the cold. We’ve been stuck in our room for a long time now due to the snow storm and instant noodles are starting to take their tolls on us.
I think the reason why this place looks so pretty with all that snow is because he’s here with me. The walk to the restaurant wasn’t as cold as I thought it would be, mainly cause both of us were jumping and goofing around the entire time. We were trying to see who can push the other into the snow first but I told him if he pushes me I’m going to report him to the DVA (domestic violence association wtf I just made that up) so I won wtf
you know the old woman/young girl illusion? Doesn’t this old woman look exactly like the old woman in that illusion?? She was wearing a scarf before this so it was sooo alike.
Haha!
Besides making fun of poor unsuspecting old women, we have been doing nothing at all. Completely nothing! We wake up whenever we want each day, ask each other the question of what should we do today, knowing full well that we don’t really care what we’re going to do anyway. Most of the time, we stay in the room and watch movie after movie until our eyes get bleary and tired, and then we’ll watch some more.
Sometimes, we lie on the bed and stare at each other in the eyes before doing something totally disgusting like lick the other person’s nose (don’t ever tell anyone I taught you this but if you lick someone’s nose, that person will smell your dried saliva for a full minute or two and let me warn you that dried saliva smells like..butt. yes. buttocks. that’s what dried saliva smells like. don’t tell anyone. but try it). Usually he does it to me first and I’ll pretend to get angry so he’ll lean forward and let me do the same too.
When we get bored of licking each other’s noses or wrestling on the bed (real wrestling, not the sexual kind wtf but the real i’ll punch you in the fking face kinda wrestling..just to keep ourselves entertained), we’ll go to the bookstore and sit there for hours reading books..without buying them nyehehe.
I love my life right now. I wish time would just stop so we can do this forever. Watch movies, eat, lick his nose, wrestle, read, walk in the snow, have my nose licked, wash his hair over the sink cause we’re too lazy to bathe, sleep. Boy, I can do this over and over again and I won’t even get tired of it.
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That night as we were talking before we slept, I asked him if he thinks we can do this again. I really really hate being apart. I’ve tried a year with him here in the US and me back in Malaysia and it was hell. I told myself then that if I ever had to do that again, I would just quit without trying.
Then it was 2 years of us being in the same country and it was slightly better although we were still physically apart most of the time. To think that we’ve done so many years of LDR, another year would have been easy right? But that night while I lay in his arms sobbing my eyes out, I felt like I couldn’t do it anymore. I was so glad when 2008 ended because that means we’re a year closer to not being apart again. A year closer.
Barely there.
But almost there.
2009 will be a tough and challenging year but I’m pretty confident that I can do this. At the risk of this sounding really cheesy, with him holding my hand, we can do this.
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Blessed New year suet. Nah, don’t worry for 2009. It gonna be great year though
I’m in a LDR too..*sob*
But hey,let’s think it this way,we’ve gone thru d toughest moment,don’t we?
All d best to u n barry n i’m sure u guys can do it!
Happy 2009!
=)
just do ur best and be happy.
the best new year’s resolutions are the ones that count, really. and yours is well worth keeping.
i’m about to leave the country for about a year and already i’m worried about what would happen to my relationship. but i think about you and barry, and although i don’t really know you, just the thought of people out there who have and maintain a long distance relationship make me feel stronger and more confident. as long as we don’t give up, as long as we do our best, everything will be okay.
just remember, you’re almost there. and we’ll all be rooting for you.
Sigh! Same here. If me and my fiance dont get together this year, I will call it a quit. I’m graduating in Aug, so gonna move there and live w him. Just worried it doesnt work out when the time comes.
Eh wait lose weight and growing boobs abit the contradicting righttt??
Yerr you and Baz damn wat tat one lah!
Lol wtf my bf and I lick each other too on a regular basis -.- . Lick the whole face some more. And yeah the saliva smell after that is quite yucky.
hi suet li,i juz wanna say thank you very much for expressing your experienced bout LDR.i’ve learnt that LDR isnt gonna be easy.bf and i have been together for 6months already and he’ll be flying to Aus next year to cont his studies.but i’m not sure about myself.all i know is that we love each other very much tho it’s only 6months together so far.but still,m worried bout wat would happen in the process of LDR.after reading your post,i felt the urge to boost my confidence and stay strong.i’m still new in relationship.so yea,m hoping for the best
you’ve already made it this far, don’t give up!
it’s gonna be painful and it will make all the years of bearing with the distance unworthy and a waste of time.
it’s really hard to meet someone whom you truly love in life. don’t call it quits unless you’ve thought thru it thoroughly
may there be a happy ending for both of you
cheers and happy new year 2009!
love yr blog btw! i think this is my first time commenting..
and as cheesy as this sound,you make me believe that you guys would stand through time and distance =)
Happy New Year!
I wish you and Barry nothing but the best
because LDR’s are such a pain in the butt but oh so worth it when everything works out right.
All the best but I am sure you both will see it through
i think that the most important lesson we must take with us and remember is that all this is only temporary. also, it helps to be positive about it all. one year will pass with the blink of an eye. think about it..say, 10 years down the road, would you still want to be with him? do you see yourself with him? if your answer is in the affirmative, then keep trying and stay strong
Suet, I think the old woman resembles the old woman/young woman optic illusion bcoz of her beak nose? Hehehehehe… and don’t give up on your LDR with Barry okay. I really envy people like you who puts a lot of weight on relationships. It takes two hands to clap, and I’m sure you and Barry could sail through another year smoothly
))
Suet, all the best to you and Barry
Just wanna tell you that by reading your posts about Barry and you makes me tougher and have more confidence on LDR. My bf and I have been together for 3 years and are going to leave M’sia to 2 diff countries for studies. Your posts make me believe that long distance relationship can work out if two sides are committing 
Its suffering but its worth it right? What can I say is appreciate the moment that you guys have currently. 
All the best to you and Barry! Happy new year & Cheers!
aww. so sweet! all the best and last long(: and oh, happy new year!
GAMBATEH GAMBATEH!
ur post made me emo eh T__T
have never been in LDR and not even a relationship for more than 8 months wtf. i don’t think i can ever bear the feeling of not being able to see each other.
just keep trying, u can do it!!
good luck suet!!
in a blink of an eye it’d be 2010 edi wtf
happy new year! i bet you and barry can work things out and get married and have kids and live happily ever after! best wishes!!
Happy New Year Suet and Barry…
YA!!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!!
JIA YOU!!!
Happy 2009 to both of you! best wishes in everything
sigh i love bazsuet so much you have no idea <3
licking noses….best mental pic of domestic bliss ever T T dun let bazsuet languish and die i need to hold onto that mental pic forever lol
hey i think you two are going to make it. no wait, im wrong.
im SURE you two are going to make it
happy new year to you
happy new year suet!!wow..so many ppl is in LDR..and me too..sigh..2 years down and 3 more years to go..let’s make this work!!to all the LDR couples out there..hang on..
god your resolution is so meaningful! mine is to er be prettier WTF
i think you all the best couple okay!
zzz jia you!
time flies..you will end ur LDR in no time..
cheers..
2009 gonna be a great year!!All the best to ya..=p
Hi Suet,
i read your blog occasionally, and similarly, i am living in Boston, doing my graduate studies and having an LDR. I know it’s tough as hell what with the time difference-my boyfriend has moved between London/California/HK for the last 2 years that the time changes were driving me nuts. It was tough and there were times when i thought i can’t do this, but we made it through and now we are engaged. Just want to let you know that it is possible, and to hang in there!
Am married to my LDR bf. It was a UK-Aussie relationship for 3 years. Longest stretch of not seeing each other >> 15 months. Definitely not easy but it can be done! Cheer up!!
am in a uk-aussie ldr too.nothing sucks more than being 11hours behind your partner,when you’re awake its almost time for her to sleep.but it can be done.all the best to you!and myself too of course.wtf
wah so sweet! I’m sure your resolutions will be a success. =D keep on loving, never fail.
T_T My new year resolutions only about study.
me always wishes you the best!
happy 2009 babeh..mwah
LDR can be done and I’m sure the both of you will sure make it!
All the best to you and Barry! =)
Take care and Happy New Year
goodness, i’m so damn unstable right now i actually nearly cried reading your post, wtf right.
or maybe it’s just quite touching larh
haha, you guys are like my favorite ‘virtual’ couple, and i hope the both of you end up ok. well, not just ok, but great! xD
don’t give up.. every time the idea comes to mind, just remind yourself of how much you guys have already gone through. i’m sure that at the end, it’s all gonna be worth it, right?
good luckkkkk suet li — and barry also. hehe. it’s 4 days late, but happy new year anyway. =D
modifiying the most overused phrase of 2008: Yes, you can.
as long as you and barry, while holding each others hands, think you can, believe it, you can. =))
i think you guys will last after all
just hold onto it
all the best suetli!
cherish the time with each other and stay strong. i am sure you both will make it to 2010.
oh by the way! where you going for internship? HKG?
you want some CNY cookies? i will see how much i can carry.. i will send you some if the baggage weight allows me to pack em.
i read your blog once in a while and i very much enjoy it..just leaving you some encouragement.i’ve been with my bf for 4+ years and for 3 years we were apart.he is in the US and me in malaysia. we only see each other for 1 or 2 months when he comes back during the summer.there will be the fights and stuff but if both of you love each other and are determined to go tru the hard times together, everything will be ok in the end.thats what happened to me and i felt my relationship has gotten stronger than it ever was,there’s the proof that LDR DOES work.so even though the distance is so great, i know that we are both working for a better future together, and that’s all that matters…wishing you and barry a great life ahead!!
Trade ya my NDR (near-dist-rel) for your LDR? We see each other everyday, but hardly speaks. Feels like seeing a plant dying before your very eyes. And it sucks. Sucks big time.
the sweetest thing would be barry and suet together forever! im sure many people would agree on me on that. happy new year suet!
*hugs* Yoo kenn doo it! I wouldn’t say it will be over before you know it, because being in an LDR for 2 years myself I know EXACTLY how you feel. Nevertheless, as long as you communicate all the time and put a lot of trust and love into the relationship you should be fine
p.s. Don’t forget to invite me to your wedding!
thanks everyone for your constant err..encouragement wtf hahah you guys are the best
happy new year too and have a great 09 everyone!
Awwww….I am very confident that you guys will make it through!! You are simply made to last….hugs and all the best for 2009!!
what doesn’t kill you will only make u stronger *talkin from experience wtf
so sweet T__________________T seriously T__________________T
gambateh, suetli!!! that’s all i can say~ hehe..
I seriously thought what I posted yesterday about picking food off the floor to eat, was pretty disgusting…
Until I read your dried saliva on the nose = butt smell…
my husband and i were in LDR for a while back in our uni days. it was hard, there were temptations everywhere ard him, he fall, i fall, we both failed each other. but our love is still strong enough to survive the relationship. and after 4 painful yrs, we’re happily married now, with a baby
good luck girl
hmm…u meant diff time zones within US rite or both of u will be in diff countries ? =) it worked out last year im sure it would work for this year too^^
I’m sure you will get through it. My hub and I (was my bf back then) were in a 4.5 years LDR until we finally settled down for good last year September. Yes, we are married now.
Happily married.
I’m only in LDR for not even one week and it is so hard. I got so used to seeing him almost everyday last year and this is so hard now that I’m leaving on campus x.x Good luck to all of us then.
This is a weird thing to say but have you gotten fitted for a bra? Because a lot of people have bigger boobs than they think they do. You may get that B cup after all!
ooh this is a sign! to read this just when im thinkin d same, whether to give up or not. to think im still havin doubts after 3 years! damn distance. im gonna email him now.. thanks!
erandi, thanks!
angie, haha yeah dear ol’ wise one!
tze, sweet is my middle name baybeh wtf
jade, thanks =D
jenny, haha picking food off floor is my daily norm haha! and disgusting is my middle name too wtf
bec, i’m looking forward to that too! thanks =)
sybell, no he’s going to germany for one semester, and then i’ll be going to hong kong the next semester =) so yeah different time zones and continents sigh
angela, aww congrats! and thanks =)
xiangyun, yeah sigh it’s really hard but u can do it too!
ozzie, hmm i dunno la i think my bra all fits well wor! u mean get someone to measure ah..
melissa, hahaha dont give up ok! good luck =)
love this entry. it shares my thoughts. On an LDR too, days without him sucks. No plan yet to go anywhere from here. Finger cross something good comes along!
i is back! i managed to get hold of a wireless modem this week, so i have been catching up on your blog, hence the deluge of comments ahaha. sorry lah babe – i am damn sam bat liddat wtf
but your entry….i wanted to cry ok when i read about you and barry and your ldr…damn touching
you know you both are gonna be okay right babe?
*hugs*
there’s too much history to throw away a relationship you work so hard at…you cannot just ‘quite without trying’!!!!!!
I shared/ will share a similar separation such as urs – 1st yr apart, 2 yrs together in uk, now 4th yr apart…our 5th yr ie next yr might be apart too. But I have all the faith in the world in our relationship.
LDRs do work out. Be one of them LDRs, Suet.
both us have the same problem. sigh~~ I really understand..really..