March 25th, 2009
Wearing the face that she keeps in the jar by the door, who is it for?
I really don’t want to keep whining and going on about how sad and gloomy I feel but I can’t cause that is really ALL I feel the past two days. I wake up each day hoping that the day will end soon so I can go back to sleep again. I told myself yesterday that ok today is an exception so it’ll be my rest day and that I shall stop being a zombie again the next day but today I woke up feeling the same 
Sorry I hate it that this is all I talk about these days but I’m really not in the mood to entertain and babble on about something random or funny when I feel like I’m in the dumps right now. And don’t worry, of course I’ll recover soon. I always do..just that I like to wallow in self pity for a few days after all the painful separations.
#33. 23 March ’09
I forgot to take a picture today cause I wasn’t really in the mood. The entirety of today was spent in the airport and in the planes. I’ve been flying for 10 hours now and I’m more sad than tired really. If you saw an Asian girl with a huge laptop bag on her back dragging her feet around aimlessly in the airport, that was probably me.
#34. 24 March ’09
Back to my normal life now. Half-heartedly reading my textbook, watching my drama and chatting at the same time.
All the lonely people, where do they all come from?
All the lonely people, where do they all belong?
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Awwww, even though I do not know you in person.
I shall give you a huge virtual hugs anyways *Hugs!* *Hugs*
Do not think there is anything I can do to make you feel better, but feel better soon!
Take your time…
Cheer up babi.. Bet you’d felt much much better by start counting down when you’re meeting him again.
The cycle is repeating itself. Gathering and departing.
I drag myself around the freaking city all the time.
I think it is normal to feel lonely all the time. But I shall not voice my loneliness so others don’t mistaken me as some despo bitch. =)
*Hugs*
ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni is damn nice! i loved it!
anyway the more important thing is, recover soon okay although I dont mind that you use this space to vent and stuff.
awww suet, makes me sad to see u like this. *hugs*
i know how u feel *trust me ^^* … u2 really sweet n loving couple.
sweet suet ^^ we are nt as lonely as wht we tot we were
*hugs*
lonely people belong to lonely planet.
hope you’ll feel better.
T________T so sad after reading ur previous post..
when I’m lonely I’ll go eat a big buffet. Foods will keep me company..too bad they don’t talk.
Broccoli man: o hai! i can talk.
me: …
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Cheer up Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü
they came from themselves. they belong in the same world everyone else does, they just dont realize it. =) *hugs
T________T so sad after reading ur previous post..
when I’m lonely I’ll go eat a big buffet. Foods will keep me company..too bad they don’t talk.
Broccoli man: o hai! i can talk.
me: …
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Cheer up! Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü Ü
aaawwwww… i feel sad too when i read ur previous entry. i hate seperation and i hate airport too since now i’m away from my loved ones. i totally understand ur feeling. cheer up k… *HUGS*
why don’t you think of your next meetups? =)
heyyyyyy… don’t so sad la….. damn kesian i see u…. don’t so sad la k?? k???
*patshugsloves*
oops sorry for the double post @_@
hey there,i only started commenting but have been reading ur blog for sometime. go ahead and wallow in self-pity ok? It’s normal and I think it’s a girl’s privilege! I know you’ll bounce back soon. All of us are rooting for uuuu.
Hey, I dont know if I have the right to comment since I have just started reading your blog, but love is about seperation and then reuniting once more. You would see him soon…Cheer up! Before you know it, you would be seeing his smiley face soon!!:):)
Hey, my first relationship was a LDR. It was quite shitty. We got together and a week later , he told me he is going to further his studies. I was only form 4 back then. He flies back very often to see me and each time before he returns, I would cry for at least a week. It sucks to be seperated. But you are lucky Suet. We didn’t pull through the seperation and we ended up fighting and arguing so often and he call it quits. It was painful. Very painful because it felt so right for us to be together yet the seperation spoils everything. Be strong Suet. I believe you can pull it through. It’s been so long and I you both just look like you’re meant for each other. I always tell my friend ” I want a relationship like Barry and Suet”. All the best. Don’t feel bad about putting up sappy sad posts. Throw it out here and we’ll be there for you. Cheers!
hey.. cheer up girl.. i know wat u mean.. i can already foresee myself roaming around d airport n crying my eyes out when it’s time to leave home again.
but look at the brighter side… which is .. .errmm.. u have someone who loves u so much even through all this LDR thingy, n u love him just as much. whoever said “it’s better to have loved than never at all” was very rite.
grab an ice cream.. or try bananas.. they’d really help to cheer u up
*hugs*hugs*hugs*
Girl, if it makes you feel any better, at least you and Barry are deeply in love and you know he loves you. I have just broken up with my boyfriend this Sunday and I have never felt so heartbroken in my entire life. The feeling of knowing you cannot go back to the past no matter what you do is just very very bad. Separation sucks, it’s true, but think of it as an obstacle that only makes you and Barry treasure each other more, and strengthen your love. I know our situations are different and maybe your pain is not the same as I’m feeling now but you have no idea how much I’d give up the entire world just to have him back in my life again. So be strong and cheer up ok?
P.S. I accidentally hit dunno what button and my comment disappeared. If it appeared twice, help me delete it ok? Thanks
But each parting makes the relationship stronger !!
*offers ice cream*
hey cheer up!
life is too good for us to live as a zombie
and we have the power to not let things upset ourselves easily
so..wait patiently for the next meet up between u and barry
recover soon! emo period will be overrr veryyy soonnnnn
why you not replying me on msn *tantrum
the ups & downs… be strong, lady!
i love you liewsuetli!!!
and ya airports and separations suck balls. drown in misery for awhile. eat something sinfully sinful. like me and the kfc i just had wtf >.<
and then we pick ourselves up and get on with life =)
I got through my LDR by counting my period cycle..haha…
Example:
“Oh, I have to get through another 3 periods then I can see my boyfriend!”
Weird. But it works! =)
i’ll reply all your comments later ok? i do really feel better now, thanks everyone
i can’t tell you how much i appreciate everyone trying to console me again and again although i whine about the same stuff all the time. i think i have the best readers in the world *big wet eyes
can create another categories which comprises how u survive this ldr…like some great stories about entrepeuner starting their business and how they went through their obstacles..u r great!
u can go through this my dear!
I’ve this distance problem with my boyfriend too.
Now we hold our relationship to pause because i couldn’t take it when he’s not around.we r merely best friends now =(
but i believe that things will get back to normal when time comes.
same to u ya!
what a strong young woman you are
dont be so down suet, the day will come again soon for you both to be together again
i understand the feeling of loneliness and pain especially for not being able to be with the one you love..
you will see him again one day =)
i’m not able to see mine =S .. so look on the brightside =)
and for the mean time, think of all the wonderful memories!
*hugs*
cheer up suet!
hope you feel better real soon! 
hugs
look at the bright side of things
suet li liew if you emo some more i will ta your sifat wtf
lol at pinkpau’s comment XDXD
i told one of my close friends in New Zealand that i like him, and he told me that we should be friends and this is not the right time for him to be in a relationship now. I talked to him the day after i told him, and everything is fine. But, as the days go by, i am so afraid that things will be getting a little too complicated and ultimately, i am afraid that i will lose him altogether. But i am not admitting defeat and i still love him a lot secretly. I still catch myself peeking out my window to check out his, because his flat is just right above the hill from mine.
So Suet, compared to my situation, you are at an advantage. At least you have someone to love. You are not alone in mind and soul. So don’t let the physical miles deter you.
Don’t emo
Hey
I’m a new reader of yours but I just want to say that you can make it through this just like how you did all those other times. And in the end, it’ll be sooo worth it! My boyfriend and I are currently in a LD relationship too, however I haven’t seen him in two and a half years! And counting.. since I won’t get to see him ’til this summer. So be happy that you got to spend time with Barry and think of the wonderful memories you had! Cheer up girl!
as the saying goes ‘distance makes the heart grow fonder’
We all need to go through this kind of situation. I have been through it. It’s painful, but after that its a sweet thing to remember. Its your turn now
and if you passed it, you belong to the experienced! go go suet.
hey there,
i’ve been a silent reader for some time but i just thought i’d leave a note after reading your recent posts.
cheer up.
you have so much to be happy for.
though barry’s so far away he’s still yours. your love is still strong and though now you are apart you know for certain that at the end of the day you’re still going to be together forever.
the love of my life left me 6 months ago because he didn’t love me anymore.
i see him everyday now. every single day because we’re in the same school same church same student council.
we are such large parts of each other’s lives. we’re practically best friends.
but i still love him. no less than the first day we got together.
and everytime i see him now, every moment he is beside me (and that’s alot of moments) it hits me over and over again how we will never be together, never have a future together because it is so painfully, and definitely over. He will never love me that way again.
I now live in fear of the day he will find someone else and leave me completely.
please cheer up okay. you have something to look forward to. you have a future.
hey suet
i totally know how u feel and regardless of what anybody may say it’ll still be crappy for at least a few days
i know i cried everyday for 1.5 weeks after my bf left to go back to work
so a virtual hug for you
*hugs*
Don’t feel bad for not writing happy posts, who’s to judge you? This is your personal space after all, you can rant all you want.
Your love story inspires many. It’s been so long and yet you and Barry are burning bright and strong.
I’m in a LDR too, and I hate it. But I love my boy so much I can’t imagine being in any other situation other than with him. I thought I would get used to it but now, 8 mths into our LDR the pain just gets worse. What to do? We can only look forward…
lisa, thanks! =D
leern, why u call me babi wtf or u meant to say baby is it *shy wtf
yeah haih the cycle starts again
valerie,yaya damn nice!! i love it tooooo. haha thanks!
francesca, i feel better now, thanks =D
may, ya lonelyplanethollywood wtf
lizzie, but i dunwan to get fat wor! how!
tamago, aww =D
yin, sigh sucks right!
steph, i knowww i should! but i just need a few days to get over the last meetup sigh
lalala, kesian hor meeeeeee wtf
emi, thanks alot! so nice to have readers like u =D
alexis, of course u have the right to comment! haha so cute. yeah i’m looking forward to it =)
melanie, aww sorry =( really u said that? awww thankiu so much for your encouragement! seriously my readers are so nice i feel like crying now T_T thanks so much again
michelle, is tht happy or sad T__T
chumi, wuwu thanks i feel better already after a few days. i will, thanks!
jaysee, hug back =(
banana, eh i got damn alot readers with food names wtf. yeah that does make me feel better. i’m sorry for your breakup =( seriously u really know the right thing to say lor, thanks so much. i feel bad for whining when your pain is obviously so much more than mine =( be strong too =(
angie, yeah it does *hopeful
xiao, thanks i want strawberry cheesecake one ok?
jy, thanks =))) i will!
aud, i did but u ignored me! T_T
jade, thanks cindy =)))
carol, i love u too carol yong omgidunnourfullname!!
lucy, hahaha so cute! if like that, only 2 periods to see my bf! eh like very fast only leh??? i think it’ll work! thanks so much!
ting, hahah aww thankssss! =D
vivian, =((( i hope things get better for u! thanks!
yosie, im not strong! if i am i wouldnt feel upset about this over and over again =(
me, aww why wont u see yours? =( thanks for your support =)
sharon, thanks!!
pinkpau, okie ta my sifat ok? *shy
samantha, awwwww! i feel so bad for u! sorry im whining when ur situation is much worse =( i really hope things will get better for you. keep our fingers crossed! thanks though
lydia, wow 2.5 years?? siao ah!!1 i can’t do one straight ldr like tht leh! we must see each other every 4 months max or i’ll die! good luck!!!
voon, yeah it will =)
iwan, yeah i’ll remember that =)
anon, i’m so sorry for you =(((( feel bad for whining when others have it worse =((( i really hope things will be better for you too. please update me ok? u can say hey im the anonymous who left a comment last time and this is what’s happening now wtf. it’ll be nice for me to know =) and thanks for your encouragement. don’t be so down yourself ok? hopefully it’ll all work out =)
lynn, yeah i just need a few days and i’ll be fine again! thanks!
grace, thanks grace =))) yeah please be strong too. 8 months is a long time. good luck in your ldr too!
what are you studdyyinnng why got cell, nucleus and wht not wan?
oh btw, i think words might not help, so I came here to give you this — *HUG*
you can claim that when you’re back in malaysia =)
Hey we lead the same life. Trying to distract myself from feeling depressed by immersing in drama and assignments. But when the drama and assignments come to an end, the feelings come back and I’ll just cry and cry.
Here’s a strawbie flavoured cupcake for you. Sigh, I’ve been there and it sure aint fun. I remember the last time I sent him off at the airport, I didnt know when I’d see him again. We lived and worked in two different continents then. And when I sent him off at the escalator in KLIA, I had to tahan my tears, coz he made me promise I wouldnt cry. I sorta kept that promise la wtf coz when I reached my car, I sat in there and cried so hard for 20 minutes I couldnt see properly after that to drive >__< So I had to wait another 15 minutes or so for my eyes to clear up before I drove, then when I drove, I started crying again and I termiss the turning on the highway and I had to pusing like crazy to get back home and when I did, I CRIED SUMMORE.
It was bloody tough I admit, but you know what. That cliched peribahasa is true. “Absence makes the heart grow fonder”. We did all we could within our powers to make the relationship work, and basically we just MADE IT WORK.
I’m married to him now *blush
You’ll get there. Trust me.
do u have a sister called suet ting/thing? coz tis morning i heard one girl called hitz.fm and says she hates her name haha and her sister called suet li
jess, studying neuropsychology T_T damn hard one la haih. ok i claim when i come back ok promise ok!
eden, haih yeah i shall immerse myself with work now T_T
whimsical, i want strawberry cheesecake icecream! wtf so demanding haha. yeah i saw your blog. haih so nice!! married edi and live together! so sad why u cry so much T_T thanks i’ll trust u =)
zzz, WTF hahahaha she called ah hahaha. ya im pretty sure that’s my sister wtf. but right i know someone whose name is the same as my sis and her sis has the same name as me wtf. wht else did she say??
i cant remember wht else she said but i remember JJ and Ian called her Sweet thing instead of sweating to get her life out of miserable hahaha and then the DJs sang her one song .. which i felt like smashing my car radio = =
Cheer up Suet *pat pat* Always look at the brighter side aite?
it’s him who wont see me suet =S
glad to see u feeling all better now =D