December 1st, 2009
Here comes the sun
In the midst of struggling to write my paper, I thought of the sun and how majestic it is. It was just one of those random sun-popping-into-your-mind moments I’m sure everyone has experienced before. The prevalence of malingered PTSD has increased in the recent –image of the sun pops up– years and this calls for a great concern because –image of sun pops up again–
you know how it is
You go about with your daily life: making your bed, queuing up for your food in the cafeteria, making small talks with your neighbors, refilling your bottle by the water fountain near the library, looking through the news feed on Facebook and here comes the glorious sun and its bright awesome rays and blinding glare.
You try to get it out of your mind and continue your mindless chat with your neighbor you don’t give a shit about but whom you continue asking how many exams she has just so you appear friendly. The sun pops up again. You ask about her dog. The sun pops up again. You tell her you hate your classes. The sun pops up again. and again. and again.
It haunts you because you let it do. You secretly enjoy having it invade your thoughts on cold lonely nights beneath the warm $100 duvet you got at Welcome. You sit in your class pretending to listen to your professor and you unconsciously invite it into your thoughts because you want it to.
Today, I thought of the sun again. Its warm glow, its varying hues of orange and purple and white and red, its perfect roundness, its omnipresent luminance. It keeps coming back over and over again so I decided once and for all that I will succumb to its influence. I walked over to my window and looked straight at it, letting my eyes feed on its glory slowly without blinking even once.
After what seemed like an eternity, the sun set and nestled itself behind the mountains and hills and things far beyond my sight. I walked over to my laptop to continue my paper but I found myself blinded for a good 3 minutes and 45 seconds. The pain was unbearable but I held my gaze, determined to let the pain sweep over me as swift as I had allowed it into me.
It came and it went as unceremoniously as I had expected it.
And then it was gone.
Here comes the sun/ here comes the sun / and I say / it’s all right
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i don’t make my bed. u do?!
HAHAHAHA so rajin
This is a really cool post.
wow I like this one! very whimsical and thought-provoking for me =)
where is koki?or however his name is spelled…
i miss seeing his face here! >.<
haha definitely whimsical
*omg naisu post
it’s my fav post of yours now! apart from the ones talking about me lah of course
little darling, it’s been a long cold lonely winter
AND IT’S GOING TO GET WORSE WHEN YOU ARRIVE WUWUUWU
darling~!~!~ i miss you!!!
wah you tryna write like pinkpau now ah. don’t lah wtf.
the sun will still pop out when you get back here but it will be a deceiving sun, all bright but with no warmth wuwuwuwu.
nat: don’t be stupid. just because this is not a usual suet-like post doesn’t mean she’s trying to “write like pinkpau.” -.- everyone has contemplative, inspired posts.
nat: idiot, pinkpau did not invent deep, reflective posts and does not have a monopoly on them.
cindy, haha i dont!! figure of speech wtf
vee, thanks!
jean, thought provoking?? haha i didnt think it’ll be cause simply write what i felt only!
zzyzzx, cause he takes the attention of my blog away from me! wtf haha nola kidding. haven’t seen him in a while!
bs, i like whimsical!
baz, thankssss! yaaa suckssss dunwan go la!
hbk, erm. wtf
nat, why? i like her writing! but i’ve always written reflective posts too what are u talking about
carol, haha sun here bright and warm and nice! thanks /boo
baz, haha nolah im always influenced by her too!
That was beautiful. What’s even more amazing is that this is how I envision my relationship with God. He’s always there, always around, always watching me; yet I seem to only notice him when I look around at Him.
like like *thumbs up*
hi suet li
different nat here. that was a very heartfelt and honest post, really really liked it. on a totally random note though, i think you shouldn’t drink redbull quite often! i heard its side effects later on are pretty dreadful. but yeah, everything in moderation. keep up the great blogging suet =D
Suet this is a lovely post. i’ve never thought of the sun like that tho. i always think of the sun as HOT HOT HOT. lol. your way of looking at the sun is somewhat special. next time i look at the sun i will think of this post that u write about the sun. =)
btw, the last sentence, is that a lyric from some song? sounds nice la.
this is thought-provoking and so beautiful :’), a work of a superfantastical genius as one of my friends would say lol
don’t stare at the sun too long though it is mesmerizing but dangerous
brad, thanks =) that’s a good interpretation
janice, thanks!
natalie, yeah im calling it quits! soon..haha im growing so dependent on it! and thanks i enjoyed writing this post =)
amanda, thanks!! yes it’s from the beatles’ here comes the sun! i love it =D
jc, thankssss! im glad u liked it!
I love this post
you’re really good with words 
:) go suet!! 
really miss u ma… when r u coming back to msia?
I feel the same way as I’m sure most males do too except substitute every time you think about the sun with sex and that’s us males.
Really enjoy reading ur blog; blatantly honest but really cute. Good luck in ur exam babe
me love ^_^
i’m so ‘mou gu’ why i kena scold pula T____T
You forgot the dudududu part after here comes the sun
eh rilek ah suann, not scolding you! just your fansi wtf
i feel like im over reading it ..
hahaha! if this was on fb i’d put a “like” on this.
owh what a nice post! so deep and meaningful xD
did u notice Welcome has this special smell that’s really bright and sharp-like it’s my hk childhood smell i used to miss it when i loiter ard in supermarkets back when i’m missing hk. btw Welcome is actually Well come….
sort of like “if you’re hungry…. well, come. if you need free air-con….well, come. if you want to read free magazines standing…..well, come.”
ap, hahahah i didnt know!! hahah well, come hahahahah!! that makes me so happy omg!