January 20th, 2010
Serious business
Great, now it’s back to the old me. Back to those dark gloomy days of having too much time to blog but NOTHING to blog about. Back to the super lazy me who sleep 10 hours a day and drag my feet around indoors cause it’s way too cold to go out. I miss Hong Kong 
not only cause it’s a great place to be but also cause it brings out the best in me. By best I mean the hardworking me who’s always on the go and not the current me who just wants to sleep all day..Arghhghgr@%@!#
Actually, I’m looking forward to going back to college again. I’m somewhat optimistic about my next 1.5 years of college life because after last semester, I’m pretty determined to start afresh and anew again. No more antisocial Suet who sits in the room waiting for someone to call her out!
Before this, I’ve always had this picture in my head of who I can be friends with or who I can get along with. If I thought someone wasn’t really my type, I hardly make the effort to keep the friendship going. How stupid, how immature, how close-minded. Those girls who drink too much? Nah not my type. Those who are too loud? Eww. Those who smoke weed and have too much fun? Too cool for me.
You know what, fuck that. Fuck putting people into categories. Fuck trying to mold my friends into who I want them to be. Fuck deciding who I can be best friends with based on my first impressions of them. If I keep doing this, I doubt I can have fun in college, much less have fun in my life at all. Yeap this is my first mission this semester, to be more open-minded and to make more friends!
Second mission is to try to make sense of what I want to do in my life, which is the hardest thing to do..I’m in my third-year now I should be able to figure simple things like this out but I have no clue. I’m majoring in Psychology (which I really love) and Economics (which is a love-hate relationship for me) and I don’t even know if I can manage doing two majors T__T
I’m not motivated enough to get into the rat race of looking for a stellar internship this summer to put into my resume but I HAVE to cause this is the most important year if I want a decent job after I graduate. But I don’t know what I want to do!!! I would love to work in a non-governmental organization again, maybe something bigger like UNICEF but is that what I want to do when I graduate? Do I really care about the society enough to make that my career?
I would die if I have to work in a bank or something finance-related. I cannot do that as much as I like money. But seriously, aren’t most people doing things they don’t quite enjoy doing anyway? Man, I need to talk to people and find out what direction I want to go from here. If anyone has anything to share, feel free to email me/comment. Better still if you have any idea on what kind of internship I should do!
This is such a serious post, but what to do, I’m a serious grown up now T_T No more frolicking around in the snow and watching dramas all day. It’s all serious business from now on le sigh.
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First of all, even you are serious, you still sound so cute! Omg.
Anyway, I cant really decide for you though. I am like you very realistic and practical in a way. As much as I love volunteering, helping the society, I dont think I would want to spend the rest of my life doing that and earning peanut pay. Therefore, what I think now is to get a well paid job which I dont really “hate” first and earn as much as I can. Later with enough money in my bank, I will quit and be more involved in things that I like. I hope this makes sense to you:)
Anyway as you say, you still have another 1.5 yrs. So dont worry. Guess what I am graduating in 6 months time (havent secured any job) and still having exams now! Nthg can beat this combination huh? LOL
testingggggg <3
Hi Suet,
I’m always reading your blog, but this one really hit me. I’m quite older than you, but I can totally relate to your blog because I was just like you when I was young. WTF. I don’t see you as an office girl working 9-5 and think it would be a total waste. I can tell you have a care-free spirit, like to be heard and be seen,gutsy, and very passionate about life. Though you may seem lost at times, you always have strength to get back on your feet. I think you should be some sort of TV personality or even a columnist. You’re very articulate and write with great enthusiam. Um, hope this leads you outside the box!
Best wishes in your future endeavors!
this is hard. i used to struggle so much trying to decide which path i should go after graduated from uni. the end, i landed on something i really hate. now i’m still stuck at it and guess i’m going to do the same job until i die.
what i want to say is, go for what you really like. everyone has different preferences and opinions. listen to your inner self and you’ll find light shining at the right path for you. good luck suet!
Hey Suet.. i hope you can try to think positive in whatever you’re doing.. life’s short, so enjoy your life and indulge in all you doing! i’m sure you can do it! you’re in your 3rd year already, remember?
jia you!!
Dun worry, I dun think everyone knows what they wanna do. Even til today, I am still not sure of what I wanna do!
Just do ur best and dream big!!!
I believe dreams do come true!!!
yes yes, i can see it in your eyes how serious you are about changing from the lazy girl you were into the new Suet. all this while you’re falling asleep at 10pm next to me, with your fingers hovering over my nipple ready to strike. you already slept 10 hours last night lah, everyday know how to sleep and eat only. this is me saying whatever i want to say.
hor hor you said fuck 4 times
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA @ Baz’s comment.
don’t worry about not knowing. i’m almost 4 years out of college and i still don’t know wtf. my first job out of college was nothing related to my studies. everyone goes through it. i think i’ve figured out what i want to do next though, but the question is, will it be worth my while.
anyways don’t forget to enjoy some of your college years!
first, decide if you’re coming home or staying in the US!
why so serious ?
It’s true that nowadays most ppl are doing what they don’t enjoy doing anyways. Here’s an example, my cousin, he’s a lawyer. He hates his job. He dont seem happy with his lif4 tho. But he got on with his life and work anyways cos he has no choice. So my advice is that if you still have a chance to change what you don’t like doing, then perhaps you should change it. Otherwise you just have no choice but to stick to it =/
I think you’re having some sort of self-doubts about what you want to do.. And I seriously think that you do care about the society. I remember reading one of those post of yours abt the internship one? about women who are abused and children who are abused and etc? I think that no matter how much you hate the society sometimes, you want to help them! Am i right?
So there you have it, my opinions. whatever it is, all the decision comes down to you. List them your own pros and cons if you have to. either way, you’ll be making the right decision cos you would know that you’ve properly thought about it. don’t rush into making decisions, trust me, i know from experience that making rush decisions doesnt help. AT ALL.
Most ppl are at this stage of life when they don’t really know what they want to do. For me, I just chill and make the best of what i have now and believe that things will work itself out. >.< Good luck! ^^
but which college are you going to?
I can really relate to your making friend issues. i do the exact same thing :/ but this year I am trying to stop judging ppl. & don’t worry, there is always a silver lining in front! just keep thinking positive
have a nice day!
I'm in my final year and in the same dilemma as you right now, and I just went to see my uni's career counsellor (exactly two hours ago)…! She gave me a lot of helpful tips and asked me to start researching on jobs related to my degree, as well as other useful suggestions such as applying for part-time customer service jobs at banks etc. I understand you may not like the idea of working in any finance-related field (I feel the same way too) but i think its a good idea that you get a taste of it (experience) as it would look good in your resume anyway, for future purposes. Or else, why not seek advice from your college's career/ student counsellor? I hope this helps.
You should watch the movie “The Kid”. I watched it in Developmental Psych class today (I’m a Psycho major too, first year!) and it really made me think! It’s never too late to change your mind and do what you love, so you can always spend the first few years making a lot of money, and later on in life when you’re sick of it all, quit and do what you love
And to everyone who’s commented about hating their jobs, ask yourself: is money really all there is to life? Is it going to make you happy in the long run? What REALLY matters to you?
Ok sorry for the long comment lol but hope this helps
Although I’m younger than you and I obviously have no right to give advice T_T
Well…..if u have a major in econ but dont want to work in a bank, you could join the financial sector of any company or organizatiom, be it profit or non profit, governmental or not….
Also a child psychologist for a school
same problem here. so i took (am still doing it) the bar after i graduated with my degree, in order to buy myself more time to figure it out. but im graduating again soon and still have no idea, so i’m contemplating doing masters. WTF
i’ve been having the same antisocial problems as well. not wanting to speak to people who are too loud and stuff haha!
still, i like the way you think suet
Yay!
But there must be something to do in Mt. Holyoke? I want to go there too, possibly.
Oh, pots are not it though.
And in terms of what your career prospects should be, I honestly think you can be anything you really want
Just throw yourself out there! 
why so serious? :[
sent u an email
haha ,chill miss. college life will be sweet n bitter but its d giese of going tru it dat will leave an inprint on you, my 2 cents is just go with the flow and sooner or later you will find that groove you want. don’t keep killing them brain cells wondering too much abt the work life and all. dat will come eventually for all but for now just be urself n slide along:)n yeah one thingy is go mix ard ,,everyone has something to share and to learn from… its called exposing yourself to all elements..:)..cheerios always miss.
BAZ’s COMMENT ROFL!!!
UN Development Programme or UN Industrial Development Organization or the World bank.
But if you ever get into any of these 3, i’d be slightly jealous.
“Those who smoke weed and have too much fun? Too cool for me.”
Hai bb we are too cool.
But not for you.
oh no.. you reminded me i’ve to start applying for graduate work as well T.T
in my current mindset, earning money is more important and once i have enough, i’ll find something better to work on.
joanne, haha cute meh?? yeah but i dont wanna be sucked into that life u know. u know how u start off with a well-paid job that u hate and what if that never ends and u never get out of the rat race?? how much is enough money anyway? arghhgh
girl, awww your comment is so nice! i feel like u’re more positive about me than i am wtf. i cant be a columnist lah cause if i have to write for a living i dont think i can do it. and tv personality like oprah!!! wah u have such high hopes for me *big wet eyes
thanks!!!
jaysee, dont do the same job until u die la =(((
hayley, yeah!! im sure i can =)
blossom, yeah im gonna do that when i go back to college also!! thanks =)
melody, thanks! i believe it does too
baz, WTF pigi lah lu wtf
amelia, ya he damn wtf lor
yosie, yeah i will! thanks!
aud, definitely not staying! but not coming home either..
allen, cause it’s serious bizness wtf
amanda, i do care about the society, but not sure if i care enough for it to be my future career u know? yeah im definitely not rushing it! thanks =)
sharon, thanks! =)
tasha, huh? same college?
rachel, good luck to us!
lxflickr, i think ive heard of that movie! i love developmental psych, definely the best class ever. what?? doesnt mean you’re younger means you have no rights!! bleh your advice was very mature ok!
rebeca, yeah, definitely!
amy, hahah! i feel like doing masters also wtf but damn lazy to study more la!
kim, thanks, and let’s not be antisocial anymore!
lisa, pls try applying! it’s a great school, despite the lack of social life here for me wtf.
tengteng, hehe replied!
harp, yeah i love college dont wanna go out to work!!
cindy, yalah he damn wtf
jason, UN internships are only for graduate students
lali, hahaha baby baby
charlene, T_T good luck to u! but how much is enough? it’s hard to decide..
i used to put ppl in categories too and now that i think about it i was acting like a stuck-up kid hahaha. you should try hanging out with those people cause sometimes they’re not simply that party-crazed people they look like !
definitely doing that this semester!!
After reading your blog, I have a feeling that you’re more of the Psychology type rather than the Economics type. However, it’s always up to you to choose whatever you want to do. All the best for you. I wish you luck.
ya if u get 100 comments, it’s Cheat One ™