Today I realized that I probably need to spring clean my room soon. I’m leaving in a week + and I’m constantly panicking that I will not have time to pack for the next two months. Oh yeah, starting from the end of this month, I’ll be at Genting for my intensive teacher training (I [...]

(a song to accompany this post:) It’s a melancholic night in exactly a week after I turned 23 in the company of people I love most. Just a week, but feels like forever ago. Reading status updates of my eager juniors in college excitedly talking about first days of classes, discussing what to wear to [...]

Something is wrong with me these days, but I just can’t point my finger on what exactly. I would stare into space in class for what seems like a few seconds, letting my mind go blank for a short while, and poof class is over. I would walk back to my room following the route [...]

When I was very much younger, I once had a friend I practically worshipped. She was beautiful, tall, intelligent, she was almost perfect. I wondered everyday why she would pick me, a nobody, as her friend. I was short, fat and I once got 78% in Science. We shared everything about our lives and she [...]

I wrote an entry this morning out of pure frustration and hurt. I went on and on about how I’m finally happy now on my blog after months of downright depressing entries, how it’s disheartening that people could prey on my happiness, how I should have known better and be tougher after more than seven [...]

Alright, so my self-proclaimed hiatus and all that “I’m not going to blog anymore/I don’t want to reveal myself to the public anymore” was short-lived wtf. Now that I’m back in Malaysia and have been more happening and cheerful lately, I keep coming back to my blog and thinking of new things to talk about. Truth is, [...]

You have no idea how amazing it is to be back home. I don’t feel like going back to that dreaded place again, the place I never really belonged to. This is where I should be, this is where my heart lies, and this is where I shall return to. Nothing anyone’s gonna say will [...]

The past few weeks have been a whirlwind of turbulent emotions for me. I should have learned my lesson by now, to always listen to my head and not anything else. Have you ever felt like you wake up knowing exactly what is right or wrong and what you should do, but godammit you just [...]

Today I finally have the time to be on my own for a little while and I realized that I actually haven’t been alone in an extremely long time now. It’s really weird because when I had this phase of my life in Hong Kong, I was mostly alone in my thoughts wandering around Central [...]

I was trying to take time off for myself but I realized that I just couldn’t do it. I couldn’t stand a single second of being alone without yakking my mouth off to anyone who would listen. But I desperately NEED time for myself right now, more than ever. I don’t know why, it’s not [...]